we were discussing about personality disorders(P.D.) this morning during Psycho period and i became curious about what P.D. i have so i took a PD test on the internet. according to this, i have a Dependendent Personality Disorder. it is characterized by a pervasive psychological dependence on other people. (Wikipedia explains it best!) hah! that doesn't surprise me though. i've known long before that i can't live without seeking for others' assistance. take cooking, for example. i haven't cooked a decent meal without asking my grandma to help me. when mama asks me to clean my room, i call my brothers or Kiara to help me sweep the floor or take out the trash. i just can't do some things on my own. seriously, i need to grow up.

but there's little progress. i think. since college, i go shopping by myself. i go to National Bookstore without asking anyone to come with me. i stay at the library and study alone. sometimes, i eat alone. even if the thought of being without anyone or anything else scares the hell out of me, i try my best to change my old ways. i don't want to be dependent on others forever. it's okay to be a bit dependent but it's better if i do things my own way, without needing others. pero siyempre, i don't want to be an extreme loner naman noh.

but i don't think i do have a serious case of DPD. kasi people with DPD are super clingy. and when their boyfriend/girlfriend breaks up with them, they tend to slash their wrists or give suicidal threats. and I AM NOT SUICIDAL.... yet. so that means i have a MILD DPD. i won't be suicidal unless i get kicked out of UST. oh whatever!

even if i were diagnosed with it or not, i don't care. personalities change anyway. if people hate me for being too dependent, then they shouldn't come near me. besides, why would you continue hanging out with a person who irritates you? that is not my problem anymore. hmph.

the drama! oh well, it's just one of those days when i feel like blabbing about stuff that has really nothing to do with my boring life.