the clouds seem darker today. the wind feels colder. the bad weather makes me feel lonelier.

i told alvin that i'm having an awful day. when he asked why, i said i have no idea. the freezing atmosphere outside only makes it worse. then he replied, "Siguro namimiss mo na kaming mga friends mo noh?" strangely, my eyes became watery. i held the tears back because i was still in the classroom. i don't want to catch the attention of my blockmates. maybe he is right. maybe i do miss my friends very much. i didn't text alvin back because i hate him. i hate him for making me realize how much i want to get away from manila and just stay in dagupan, my beloved home, forever! i'm tired. very very tired of having to put up with people who blame me and insist that i did this and that. i won't stop worrying until the person responsible for that "thing" would get caught.

i think maybe the reason why i feel so sad right now is because i don't always get to see my best friends. minsan lang kami mag-usap. minsan lang mag-text. minsan lang talaga magkita. i need them now. but somehow, ayoko pa ikwento yung nangyari because i don't want them to worry. and i think i'm just super paranoid about this "thing". i just need to get away from all these. i just have to.

my day became a bit brighter when i received a hug and lotsa smiles from my friends this morning. thanks, guys! :)