7 hours before Marielle's flight.

Papa's income tax return came in yesterday. i'm having second thoughts about this whole scholarship thing. taas ng income ni papa eh. i doubt that the university would put me in their top candidates even if i have good grades. of course, they'd prioritize those who are truly in need of it. but i really really want that scholarship. it's not about the financial assistance. it's more of the balance of everything. i want to get latin honors when i graduate AND maintain my social life while i'm at it. i feel that the scholarship would give me a sense of order. with it, i would have a goal to achieve. feeling ko mas magkakaroon ng direksyon yung buhay ko. i'm not saying that people who aren't scholars have messed up lives. i only think that mine would be better if i'd get the scholarship kasi i'd be more masipag. oh, God, give me a sign! should i or should i not push through with it?