my eyes were sore from crying. i just ate a 1/4 pound burger, xtra large fries and xtra large soda. i'm still hungry and my head is still pounding. why on earth am i sitting here typing these things?

i don't know. lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling and thinking of what happened this morning make me feel more depressed and i just thought that blogging would make me feel a bit better. today has been the worst day ever! i swear i could've jumped right from the fire exit. but committing suicide is the last thing i need to do right now. i was supposed to be at the mall today, shopping, but i couldn't coz my eyes were puffy. and even if they weren't, i still wouldn't leave. that is just not like me. turning shopping down? tsk, i must be out of my mind........ ha. maybe i am. he just drives me insane.

TO THE KING OF DENIAL:
i mean, i know everything that you've been doing and you're still denying them! what on earth is wrong with you, you asshole? yeah. asshole. that's you. you deserve to be called that because you ARE one. you know what, you're really breaking my heart. okay, i phrased that wrong. you're CRUSHING my heart when you keep on insisting that you don't know what i'm talking about. you lying bastard! why are you so stubborn? what did she give you, huh? love potion? did she hypnotize you or something? or is she that good in bed???? i can't believe that you, of all people, would do that to me. i've never felt so betrayed in my life.

i miss the old times, man. we don't do the same things anymore. we don't talk like we used to. you've changed. a LOT. while you're still with her, you're making me hate you more. you have no plans of leaving her, don't you? you're just gonna leave us all hanging, huh? aren't you ashamed of what you are doing? you don't love her. it's lust. that's what you're feeling. i don't expect you to take my advices but i'm hoping that one day, someone will walk right up to you, look you in the eye and ask, "are you happy with what you're doing?" think,man. i know you're not dumb. there's still time. i just don't want you to be looking back at the past, thinking of your should've, would've, could'ves.